Lover AwakenedLover Awakened
Author : J. R. Ward
Series : Black Dagger Brotherhood
Genres : Fantasy, Urban Fantasy, Paranormal Romance
Publication : September 5th 2006 by Signet

Synopsis : In the shadows of the night in Caldwell, New York, there’s a deadly war raging between vampires and their slayers. And there exists a secret band of brothers like no other – six vampire warriors, defenders of their race. Of these, Zsadist is the most terrifying member of the Black Dagger Brotherhood.

A former blood slave, the vampire Zsadist still bears the scars from a past filled with suffering and humiliation. Renowned for his unquenchable fury and sinister deeds, he is a savage feared by humans and vampires alike. Anger is his only companion, and terror is his only passion—until he rescues a beautiful aristocrat from the evil Lessening Society.

Bella is instantly entranced by the seething power Zsadist possesses. But even as their desire for one another begins to overtake them both, Zsadist’s thirst for vengeance against Bella’s tormentors drives him to the brink of madness. Now, Bella must help her lover overcome the wounds of his tortured past, and find a future with her…

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I have to be honest guys : Zsadist has been intriguing me since the first book. He seemed to be most complicated and interesting character. So I was really eager to start this book !


And I was right : this book is my favorite in this series so far ! Zsadist is such a complex character and his relationship with Bella isn’t an easy one. But this book has more plot than the previous ones. The second book has more than the first one so I guess it’s promising for the sequel !

This book is a mix of present scenes and past flashbacks, about Zsadist’s horrible past. It’s really gripping ! I was really glad to get to know him, even though his past is really awful.
We also get a fair share of steamy scenes but there’s a tenderness to it, because of Z’s past.

This book is a roaller coaster of emotions ! It made my heart melt at times but also broke it several times. I was a puddle of raw emotions while reading it !

I’m not broken, I’m ruined. Do you understand the difference? With broken maybe you can fix things. Ruined? All you can do is wait to bury me.

It was beautifully written. Bella healed Zsadist as much as she needed him in order to survive. He made her feel safe again and she made him get over his awful past in order to allow himself to be loved by anyone, even his twin brother, Phury.

Phury also loves Bell but he can clearly see that she has eyes only for his brother. Phury will always put his brother’s happiness before his !

The moments where Z kept pushing Bella away were really heartbreaking, I could feel her confidence fading ! It was even more sad because it was obvious that he was caring deeply for her, her safety, her well being and her happiness. He has this fierce need to protect her, to put her in a safe bubble.

We also get to see a lot of John, how he adapts to his new life.
A part of the ending crushed me, though. I really wasn’t expecting this !


  • Let’s start with Bella ! She is such a strong character; she has been through a lot, while being at the mercy of the Lesseners. Even in the darkest place, she found the strength to save another vampire from an unavoidable death.
    She is also terribly stubborn. She wants Zsadist and no one else ! But she also understands that he is different, that he has many profound issues. And She wants to help him so badly !
  • Zsadist, seriously I can’t help but find him cute and adorable. I know he hurt many people and can be barbaric but he is so touching, you cannot not love him !
    And the ending proved me right ! He is so careful when it comes to Bella’s safety and needs. He goes beyond its own limit for her. And at the same time he knows he’s not worthy of her, or her love. So he is ready to see her settle with another male and have his own heart broken, just for her happiness !

And how cute is that ending between these two ?! I cried so much !

I was dead until you found me, though I breathed. I was sightless, though I could see. And then you came…and I was awakened.

5 stars


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About the author

J. R. WardJ.R. Ward is the #1 New York Times bestselling author of numerous novels, including the Black Dagger Brotherhood series. She lives in the South her family.


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